as i watch this world pass me by
i sit alone & cry
i'm not getting better
only worse
i hate myself for skrewing up
& fucking up everyone else's life
everyone else seems so peaceful
i'm awere that most r just putting on a show
b/c that's all u do
but i don't tell u
b/c whether or not i tell u
u're still gonna skrew me over
& if i'm so fucked up y bother
i don't
i don't see y u say i'm such a bad kid
i've just lived my life differently
& just b/c my life is shit & i know it
doesn't mean u should lable me
it's my own job to lable myself
not ur's
not theirs
not anyone's but my own
& now i'm locked up in my own mind
& can't be freed
i'm swallowed by my pain
& consumed by my fear
i'm trapped in a life i can't control
no one seems to notice anymore
no one seems to care
so i lie
& tell them all is well
but it's just me hiding
me
the silent one